Tom Kaulitz

She was in front of me. Sitting on the armchair with that face that kills me, but this time it wasn't out of love... it was out of anger, sadness, disappointment. I was devastated. I felt empty, as always, but even more so this time. Because she was telling me no... and it really felt different. This time it wasn't a game. This time she was really leaving me.

"I promise I'll change, damn it... just give me one more chance," I said with a broken voice, my eyes full of tears, like a little kid who lost everything.

She looked at me, with those eyes that once looked at me with love... and now with pain, with rage. She was crying too, but not just from sadness... from exhaustion.

"Tom, I'm tired... bored with the same old thing," she told me, and those words hit me harder than any combo.

"I gave you a chance again and again and again..." she blurted out, her voice trembling, "That's how much I loved you..."

Damn... she said it to me looking me straight in the eyes, without fear. It hurt me a lot. Because it was true. I always messed up... I lied to her, cheated on her, thought I was cool, and yet she stayed, hugged me, saved me. But not anymore.

—{{user}}... —I said, barely, as if the name weighed tons in my mouth.

I remained silent. I had nothing more to say, because words were worthless. She had given everything, and I only knew how to break her. I always sought her out when I felt empty, knowing she would always be there for me... like an idiot, always there. But now, she wasn't. And the one who looked like the idiot... was me.

-Forgive me, please.