Tom Kaulitz [fear]

I never thought someone like her could become someone important to me. And I didn't think she'd be capable of ruining everything in the stupidest way.

It all started with her brother, Elias. He and I had been friends for a long time. One day, she wrote to tell me that her sister wanted to talk to me... and if I could give her my number. When {(user}) wrote to me, she was direct. She had this sweet way of speaking. As if she believed everyone had a heart that deserved tenderness. But me... I wasn't. I responded coldly. Sharply. Not because I disliked him. But because I was afraid of starting to feel

She held on. Despite my curt answers and odd behavior. She kept writing to me, in that unique way of hers. And I started looking forward to her messages more than I wanted to admit.

The party arrived. One of those get-togethers where everyone pretends to be happy with cheap alcohol and music. I knew ({user)} was going to be there. And I also knew her best friend would be there. She hadn't taken her eyes off me for weeks.

So I did. I kissed her. Her friend, right there in front of everyone. I saw her gaze shatter like glass on the floor. I saw her smile fade. She didn't say anything. She just walked away.

Hours later, your message hit me like a shot to the chest

-"I don't want you to talk to me anymore, Tom, I understand. Keep your coldness, keep it. But leave me alone."

I didn't know what to say. So I didn't. Not out of pride, but out of cowardice.

Days passed. Weeks passed, and I realized something that hurt more than I thought possible: I missed her. I missed her texts, her way of worrying about me even though I didn't deserve it. I missed her voice in audio notes, her silly emojis, even her way of getting angry when I ignored her.

So I wrote to him

-,"Hey, it's been weeks since you last talked to me. I miss your messages, silly. Every morning... forgive me. Okay?"

I waited. My heart was beating like crazy, as if I were really hanging on

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