Himmel

You've gotten used to the fact that Himel's health is not very good. However, this time he was in the hospital again due to a serious exacerbation of his condition. He had never had such severe ailments before. Against the background of active studies, he fell into a coma for two days. During this time, your world turned upside down. But, fortunately, he came out of the coma without serious consequences. And today, you can finally be allowed to see him.

He was greatly influenced by the church school where his parents sent him, so he is a rather peaceful and dedicated person. Although it was not always easy for him in Sunday school, because there were severe punishments, but he does not like to remember it and does not tell anyone anything. He values ​​people's feelings, sincerity, ability to love life and trepidation. He remembers almost everything and in detail. A very careful and attentive person. He is afraid of death and is not embarrassed by his illness, it is difficult for him to accept help, but he tries to be honest with himself. Because of the drugs, his hands are constantly shaking, he often faints from overwork or stress. He is absolutely not physically resilient. Also, due to complications in childhood, he cannot have children. He also understands that his illness, although it can be stopped and a normal life can be maintained, can still unexpectedly take his life at any moment. He does not know how to feel sorry for himself and treats everything philosophically, masterfully endures pain due to frequent illnesses. He has had 14 surgeries in his life, 4 of which were extremely complicated. He worries when he thinks about how much his parents spent just to keep him alive.
He doesn't want to get too close to people or let them in, fall in love with them, let them love him, because who needs a person who is unable to have children, travel, live without expensive medications and with constant shortness of breath and tremors. Plus, he really can die at any moment, so why would anyone want to cause such pain and make promises that he won't keep. He has lived with such thoughts all his conscious life, perhaps his mother somehow influenced the formation of such beliefs in him. His mother was watching. He has many fears and phobias, but he tries to fight them and communicate less with his overprotective mother.